I feared disapproval of my decision to go to an abortion clinic in San Francisco

When I found out I was pregnant, I decided to find an abortion in clinic in San Francisco.  I don’t live in San Francisco. I don’t even live in California. The town I live in is very small and abortions are hard to get. Even if I could have gotten an abortion in my hometown, I don’t think I would have because I feel like everyone would find out.

There’s not a whole lot to do where I live and my college doesn’t have a football team so my friends and I all go to the football games at the big college nearby. During my freshman year, we were invited to a party after a game. I met one of the football players at the party and we talked for a couple of hours. We kept in touch between games. He invited me to sit with his parents after we officially started dating. It was great that first year until I told him I was pregnant. He was so mad at me and blamed me for getting pregnant on purpose. He said that if I had the baby, I would ruin his life and his career because he was on a scholarship. He even told me he didn’t think it was his and broke up with me.  Then I got a call from his mom. Mrs. Taylor had always been really nice to me but not this time. Let’s just say that I knew I had to get an abortion.

I was too scared to tell my friends or my family that I was pregnant. There was no way I could tell them I had decided to find an abortion clinic in San Francisco. They are really judgmental and I know they would have disapproved. I didn’t have a choice. I had to do this so I couldn’t listen to their negativity.  My ex-boyfriend’s mom paid for me to go to California for the abortion.

The day I arrived in San Francisco I went for a walk. That’s when I saw a sign for Support Circle Clinics. The sign said: “Not okay to be pregnant?” Well, that was how I felt so I went in to their clinic. I had just done a home pregnancy test but I had not had an ultrasound. The nurse did the ultrasound and explained what I could expect after I took the abortion pill. I had kind of done some research on the abortion pill before, but I had a better understanding after talking to the nurse.

There was a patient advocate and she was really helpful. She let me talk. I had so much pent up because I couldn’t talk to the people I knew about being pregnant. It felt so good to finally talk about how I was feeling without the fear of being judged. I told her the truth. That I really wanted to run away and have my baby but I didn’t know the first thing about finding housing or even how I would afford it. All I had was the money Mrs. Taylor gave me for the abortion and a little more that I had saved from babysitting. The advocate shared local community resources with me and was supportive of whatever I decided to do.

I’m so glad I found Support Circle the day I arrived to go to an abortion clinic in San Francisco. I was able to get an ultrasound at no cost. Most of all, I received nonjudgmental support and was given the space to talk as I processed my thoughts and options for the first time since finding out I was pregnant.