After my Planned Parenthood appointment, I was so upset and confused

After my Planned Parenthood appointment, I was so upset and confused. It wasn’t anything they said. I had felt so alone ever since I found out I was pregnant. I saw a sign that said: “NOT okay to be pregnant?” Nope, it was not okay for me to be pregnant. I called the number for Support Circle.

My husband and I had known each other since middle school. We were high school sweethearts and married after our freshman year in college when I became pregnant with our first child. The fairytale ended pretty abruptly when I had to drop out of UC Berkeley to work, care for an infant and put my husband through college. We had three more children since and I became a stay-at-home mom. I just started working again a few months ago. I had to start at the bottom again. Now separated, things were not looking good for reconciliation.

When I missed my period, I thought it was stress from the separation. But when I got sick walking through our apartment hallway, smelling the different aromas of our neighbor’s cooking, I knew I was pregnant. I’m barely making it with four children on my own. I just couldn’t imagine having five children with cost of living so expensive in the Bay Area. I made that Planned Parenthood appointment to have an abortion, in part, so I won’t have to listen to my mother if she found out I was pregnant again.

When I went in to Support Circle, the staff were so kind and friendly, I was able to relax. I unloaded everything I was dealing with on Jackie, my patient advocate. It felt so good to be able to talk and get it all out. She listened. More than that, it did not feel like I was being judged at all. Jackie even gave me a number of resources that could help me if I decide to carry this baby to term or if I decide to place it for adoption.

I don’t know yet, if I will schedule another Planned Parenthood appointment to have an abortion. I do know how thankful I am for Support Circle and their great team. I don’t feel as alone as I did before.