When I went to the Planned Parenthood clinic in Oakland to have an abortion, the staff were friendly. I sat in the waiting room, my anxiety just kept growing and growing. I kept thinking, over and over: “I am going to have an abortion. I am going to have an abortion.”
I began to wonder how I got to this point in my life. In general, I am prochoice, just personally, I would never choose abortion. Back when I was younger, I was so strong in my convictions. Now, here I was, in my junior year of college, sitting at a Planned Parenthood clinic, planning to have an abortion. The realization that my younger self would be so shocked and disappointed in me right now, made me cry. I had to leave.
As I was walking down the street, I saw a sign for Support Circle on the sidewalk outside a medical building. The sign said: “Pregnant? Unsure?” That was me. I went upstairs to talk to the Support Circle people. The clinic waiting room was smaller than the Planned Parenthood clinic and wasn’t as packed. It felt serene and peaceful.
A nurse did an ultrasound to verify my pregnancy as I had not gotten that far at Planned Parenthood. I really was pregnant. She asked if I wanted to see the screen. I did. It was amazing to see this tiny little baby inside of me! At that moment, all the other stuff I was scared about in terms of my relationship with the father and school and money, it all just didn’t matter to me anymore. I knew I wanted my baby.
Before I left that day, I talked to the Patient Advocate. She was very kind and helpful. She listened. I never felt pressured or rushed. It felt like I was the only person that mattered to her for the time we met. She gave me information to help address some of my concerns. And then she told me I could come back and talk. I am so incredibly happy that I found Support Circle when I left the Planned Parenthood clinic. Deep down, I didn’t want to abort my baby. I just wanted someone to help me. I would recommend you call or visit Support Circle if you are pregnant and alone or unsure of what to do. I went to Support Circle and I’m glad I did.